This week's feeling

This week's feeling

I signed in to a new concept dating website.I have met some girls, some were interesting, others were not.

But that was not succesful, it's totally faked.

Whatever.

I had a bad ascertainment today, about my life. The sadest thing about my life is feeling alone even if I am surrounded by people. And to find a right answer to that problem, I try to like those people, but I am always disappointed. Thus I try to not like them. I do it right. But them I am alone, surrounded by poeple I don't like. And I need to love and be loved. So I try to love. But I am always disappointed. Thus I erase that love. And then I feel alone. And it goes on and on... and I have learned to live with it... it is scaring me...

Once upon a time, when I was younger, I had no problem to meet people and find them intersting. But I guess across the years, I have been to much disappointed about how people threat themselves and their surrounding.

I am afraid of loving I guess. And I don't find anyone that is able to throw this fear away from me... I wonder if I am worth finding someone good....

Well, I feel alone. And it's haunting me.

Kingdom of Norway.

Norway is a country. It's a kingdom, like Belgium, or not.

I felt in love with Norway four years ago, in 2010, when I went there for the first time. 

I remember the unique feelinkg I got when I land off in Oslo Gardermoen. I felt safe! It was the first time of my life I felt really safe. Everyone inspired me a unlimited trust, and those persons were people I hadn't known before.

When you land off, the staff of the airport come to you and ask you if you have any problem, in English. But they can also speak Spanish, French, German, and Swedish.

I breathed for the first time in Norway. The atmosphere and the air are so pure that it surprised me.

But, in Norway, trolls are alive! Yes, you well understood. Norway gives a big importance to its culture, but also to its nature and its people.

When I speak about Norway, people think "cold", "snow", "unpleasant people", but they're wrong.
I have never been in a place in Norway where people were unpleasant. They are full of love, helpful.
And, yes, sometimes this country may be "cold", but Norwegian usually say : "There are no bad weather. There are only bad clothes". And that's right!

Not a lot of people consider Norway the way I do. For them, it is a scandinavian country, so it's cold, it always rains, snows, people kill themselves becase of the weather and the climate.
They forget magic. Magic of life.

Norway is a beautiful country. You have some fjord, with beautifuul names, you have beautiful mountains which ones dwell some dwarves, trolls, dragons that only appear where you are not next to them, and when the northern lights are catching all your attention. Not only polar lights. There is also the midnight sun, probably the most beautiful view in the world where you are in love with someone. And the most demoralizing one when you are single and you know you need someone.

But, what are words describing something without any picture? Here you are some northern lights in Bodo, Norway.

Introduction

Hello everyone,

My name is Phil, but all of my friends call me "Pilou"! I am a 23 years student who lives in Brussels, Belgium.

The object of this blog is writing down my thoughts about life events, and share these ones.

Well, I have some bad (or good? It's a point of view) events that change my life. I think about love experiences, or thoughts about friendhsip, scolarship and my complicated little country I like less and less.

I'll begin my blog about Norway, the country I felt in love with years ago (on another article).